It's been a terrible year for everybody all around the world
Wasn't different here. Until the end of July.
After that, even in the middle of lonely and isolation, love came back to me.
Suddenly, I'm engaged, full of plans, and more in love than I ever been.
Not everything is perfect but I'm hopeful. And very happy.
I hope love will find a way to your heart too, reader.
Happy holidays
I'm so tired of failure.
The amount of work at this moment is not that high but even so.. I'm not managing well.
A tape made with the right selection of songs would melt, break or win any heart...
Still got many of them.. plenty of memories.. even though there's no way to listen to them anymore
How do young people do today? A playlist on Spotify?
I think Pet Shop Boys was the very first band I paid attention to the sound and decided I liked it. Even as a kid I was attracted to Suburbia and It's a sin or, better saying, to the rhythm of the songs. It was the same with New Order. I was familiar to many of their songs but Regret made me learn the name of the band and pay attention to who they are.
It was different from everything around me back then. And the video was so beautiful. It was the first time someone changed the radio station and I've said "No leave it there!". I got a look of disapproval in return but I felt I was right! I was 13 and I understood something other people didn't. It was glorious.4. U2 - Stay (farway, so close)
So hard to pick just one song so I did it by the same strategy for New Order. U2 was familiar but Stay made me stop and listen to everything they had recorded, learn all about them and dream to be the girl from the song's video. (This song is also about an encounter, a dance in the balcony and the wondering about different choices in life)5. Cranberries - Ode to my family
The first three albums of them are so important to me. No need to argue it's the best one in my opinion, you can listen to all the songs without skipping any track6. The Cure - A letter to Elise
Disintegration has been my favorite album for the past 10 years but Wish was the first one I bought and listened to over and over. And over.7. Morrissey - Suedehead
I know we all hate Morrissey now but this song is about a time I was starting to go out at night and have fun, and also about this place where I used to go with my friends. This song was played by a local band ever single night we were there.8. The Beatles - Strawberry Fields Forever
I discovered The Beatles with a little help from my friends at school. I was 15. It sounds like 1965 but it was 1995. We felt so cool, in the middle of Spice Girls and boybands fever we were listening to Beatles. Only nerd kids at the 90s would feel cool listening to old people's music. And because of that all my notebooks from high school had the quote "Nothing is real" written by pen inside their back covers.9. Oasis -Wonderwall
When I was a teenager I could barely understand anything in English just by listening to it. Sometimes not even reading it. So I asked my English teacher what Wonderwall meant. He laughed and said it made no sense what so ever. He said I must have got the word wrong and I felt so ashamed...10. Wallflowers - Josephine
Nobody knows where they are these days (right?), but Bring down the horse is a great album that I only bought thanks to my brother who put half of the money for it. What? I was a teenager, it wasn't cheap, ok?11. Radiohead - High and dry
Here began my love story with this band. The whole The Bends album is perfect and historical to me, I only picked High and dry because it was the first single (I think). I begged my mom to buy it. We didn't had money to spend on something I would only listen to a couple of times and then throw it away (that was her argument). I promised it was not the case and it really wasn't it.12. REM - Crush with eyeliner
Still don't know what the fuck is a sad tomato, but I love this song. But I must confess, I actually consider Automatic for the people and New adventures in hi-fi my favorite albums.13. Pearl Jam - Alive
I think it was the same emblematic year of 1995 when I first listened to Ten. I liked immediately but it took many years to get to know the rest of Pearl Jam's discography. Thank God they are in my life for good now.
So, the same group with whom I was listening The Beatles, one of the girls had a copy of Throwing Cooper and all the others had a chance to borrow it. I guess I alone was the most famous song, but White, discussion stuck with me.15. The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony
Everybody liked it back them and whoever says it didn't is fucking lying! Such a great song.16. Placebo - Without you I'm nothing
At the beginning of 2000, Placebo was sexy and intense. A bit of glam and a bit of emo.17. Coldplay - Trouble
There are other Coldplay songs I could put in here but, when I was still in college, I was part of a internship program and in the room where the group worked was always playing a local radio station. Trouble was on their set list almost every day.18. Travis - Re-Offender
So this is one of the bands I thought I would be listening forever. This song in particular was huge19. Madonna - Nothing really matters
I wasn't a fan of Madonna before Ray of light. Well maybe a fan is an exaggeration even today, but this album had a huge impact on me and made me go back to Erotica, Bedtime Stories (my favorite) and definitely put Madonna on my radar.20. INXS - Everything
I love Elegantly Wasted from the first to the last song.21. Cardigans - Erase/Rewind
I don't really like Cardigans but this was on my playlist every time I hit the road between 2004 and 2007. And I was traveling a lot.22. Joy Division - Transmission
If New Order has been forever in my life, Joy Division was a act of personal discovery. I was finally where I wanted to be all my life but it wasn't easy. I was by myself and experiencing life in a exciting and frightening way at the same time. Listen to Transmission out loud at my place was a ritual.23. PJ Harvey - We float
Stories from the city, stories from the sea could define everything in my life between 2004 - 2007. In some way, We float was professing me how everything would end. And so it did.24. Franz Ferdinand - This fire
Not everything is about depression and loneliness, thankfully. Every time I need to shake it and smile, FF is there for me. Their gig for Tonight: Franz Ferdinand tour in São Paulo was one of the best concerts of my life.25. Yeah yeah yeahs - Deja vu
Until about 6 years ago I was periodically dreaming about working with cinema. I wanna to write for it, maybe direct too. I still have ideas of plot for stories every one and a while but I don't pretend I will do anything with them anymore, sadly. They just come.. and go. Anyway, this was supposed to be the soundtrack of one of these stories.26. Doves - One of these days
I used to listen The Doves all the time! What happened? Making this playlist, the moment this song came along I wanted to play all their albums at once. Thinking rationally, you gotta make room for change so other songs and ideas must come, but I felt like had failed a great friend. Some cities, oh my God, pure 2006 to me.
Being honest, Antics was played to the point of exhaustion. But when Our love to admire came along I was taken by Pioneer to the falls in a way I didn't listen to the rest of the album for days. I would lay down at my mom's living room, in the dark, and listen to this song on repeat, imaging so many version of one that stories. The whole cinematography of the scenes was influenced by the power of this song.28. Twilight Singers - Esta noche
At some point in 2008 (or maybe 2009) I rewatched the film Backbeat and tried to find the soundtrack online. One Greg Dulli was part of the band playing versions of some very early Beatles songs on the soundtrack and, before I knew, I was listening to The Twilight Singers all the time. My favorite song of them was yet to be written, but it doesn't mean Esta Noche is not pure perfection, as it is the whole Blackberry Belle. And She loves you.29. The rumor said fire - Dance
So I had this Danish music phase... let's leave it like that32.Muse - Supermassive Blackhole
Wow I had this huge Muse phase between Absolution and The Resistance. Not that I don't like anymore, it just doesn't match what is going on now. This was a great song to listen in the treadmill, it really used to boost up the training.33. Depeche Mode - I feel you
It could have been a great love story but it was just a mutual appreciation of one another. And Depeche Mode, of course.34. Death cab for cutie - I will possess your heart
I resisted very suspiciously to the Death Cab frenzy... until the album Narrow Stairs, which I love and even bought the cd and everything. Unfortunately the relationship with the band didn't evolve but this song definitely left its mark.35. Shout out loud - Hard Rain
Swedes...36. Paul Thomas Saunders - Appointment in Samara
I was a heavy user of Soundclound for years... (Even when Spotify was available in Brazil I resisted quite a while to join it. Many times, when there's too much fuzz about a app, a movie, a band, I go on the opposite direction and avoid it as it were the worst thing possible.) So I loved to discover new artists and remixes of songs I already knew on Soundcloud when I've found this such talent guy. His songs paints these very open landscapes. I always feel like walking alone in some weird wide spaces. And I kind was going a long road inside myself.37. Mark Lanegan - Ode to sad disco
I don't remember but I'm pretty sure I got to Mark Lanegan through Greg Dulli. I have embraced Blues Funeral since the first listening and went to the concert in SP thanks to a dream I've had where Dulli told me to do so. Best advice on a dream ever.38. Glen Hansard and Markéta Inglová - When your mind is made up
The actual track I wanted to list here was Noel Gallagher's High Flying Birds - Let the lord shine a light on me, but is not available on Spotify, and the HD where I had it is broken. Nevertheless, by the same time Once Soundtrack was huge at home too, not only to me but to my siblings. The way that this songs grows is fantastic, makes you want to scream along too.39. Norah Jones - Say goodbye
I've been listening to Norah Jones since her very first album, but none of them has touched me like Little Broken Hearts. I've tried to buy the vinyl so many times but it seems I'm always out of money or the dollar exchange makes it too expensive... right now it's just impossible.40. Afghan Whigs - Parked Outside
Here too it should be listed some other song, a cover version Afghan Whigs made to Lovecrimes. I confess to never have ever listened the Frank Oceans' original because I think this cover is so magical and perfect I doubt he could do better. It was another gem I've listened on Soundcloud and its not available anywhere but there. I highly suggest everyone to go there and go crazy. In my recent history I think Afghan Whigs is the most relevant band added to the list of "Bands and songs to explain who I am or how did I got here". Do to the beast was solid 2013-2014 and still goes on.That's it. 40 songs for 40 years.